Bored, at school with my computer

This isn't really a proper blog post, I am at school at the moment, sitting with my computer in a library that is actually kinda crowded. I'm bored and I feel like writing so I thought I would post on my blog, give me something to do. Plus I wanted to have a blog post from March (I'm going for that at least one per month thing. I have story ideas running through my head non stop, which is good... need to write the lasted one down on onenote so that I don't forget it before I have the time to write it.... I have geography next and we are working on our assignments, which is something I really need to do.

My life at the moment it kind of like a confusing mess, I have so much on and I never seem to have the time to do anything, I am really starting to stress out at the moment. Oh and the internet just failed, damn!! Oh its back. The bell is about to go, so I had better leave my blog post at this, I know its short and everything but at least its something right?

Love Ellie

I said I would, so I did

Hmm well I have to tell you the news, my friend thinks that I am crazy because I believe in wicca. Logic there? None. Well I guess that is the typical response, I mean wicca does involve witchcraft and how many people, when you basically say to them: I'm a witch!!! Are going to think you totally sane? Not many I guess. But I'm not crazy! Ok maybe slightly but its not a bad thing!

On another note he also said that I live in a fantasy world and that I know nothing about the real world. Umm hello, I think you can learn more about the true nature of the world by watching Buffy and Angel and reading books then you ever can living where we live. I mean, does anything bad ever happen here! This place is so dull and boring and "perfect"

I do not live in a fantasy world, I just love reading. I read all sort of books, not all of them fantasy. The book I am reading at the moment isn't fantasy, its non-fiction. Ok so it is about witchcraft but its still non-fiction.

I can't concentrate on my blog post as I am talking to my friend on skype. Oh, by the way I said that I would try and post today and I did so yay for me.

New year, new start

Ok so it is now 2011 and I know I haven't posted anything for ages but I am going to try and post at least once a week from now on. This year I am going to try and work on my friendships and getting to know more people. I have a sort of metal list of who I am going to try and get to know, and it would help if they ever bothered to come on facebook! I know you are going to say to talk to them face to face but I have to start somewhere don't I? The reason I want to work on my friendships this year is because I figure this is the last year I am going to have a chance to do it. Next year (and the one after) I will be doing the HSC so I will have to focus on school work and after that I will be going to uni and I really don't want to be leaving home without any solid friendships to fall back on.

I also want to focus on my writing this year. I am doing a professional children's writing course (I got my first assignment back yesterday and I got a high distinction so YES! Score!) and I have a Wattpad account now, which I am going to try and write on. I counted my notebooks on the weekend and it turned out I have 36! I mean 36!!!! Each stories gets its own notebook, in the hope that I will finish the story and fill the pages. I have heaps of great ideas for stories, and I try and write them down but I will never have the time to write them all!

I also need to focus on my wicca studies and stuff. I have a book called where to park you broomstick: a teens guide to witchcraft that I am reading which tells me all about it (well the basics at least. I am going to try and start or join a coven. I have this friend who used to be part of a coven but now it is just her and her teacher left, I am hoping they we join we could really learn a lot from them.

That's all I really have time for tonight, but I will try and post again tomorrow. No promises though as I have this really bad memory problem that means I just forget to do stuff, because I get distracted. There is so much more that I could say, but I really don't have the time as it is already after my bed time and I want to read more before I go to bed. See you everyone

Future...

I have always believe that everyone has the power to do whatever they want with their life but now I am starting to doubt that... I mean, how many people thought when they were teenagers 'Oh when I grow up I'm going to work in macdonalds for the rest of my life' Not many, so now I have a new theory:

Everyone has the ability to do whatever they want with their lifes but only a few have the power to actually make it happen for them. I just hope that I am one of those people because I have a lot of things I want to do with my life and very few of them have anything to do with being that nobody who serves you your food, who you look at and then forget three seconds later.

I atleast want to be a nobody that does something good, something worthwhile where atleast one person will respect them for what they did.

Well in theory I want to be the Slayer but really thats not a very big possibility as she is a fiction character in a TV show. Maybe....

Random Stuff

Why did I just think it was April? I dunno, maybe I am reading to many diary style books. Well its the 2nd of July today. I know its only been a couple of days since my last blog post but I'm bored so I decided to write on my blog.

I need to start doing a lot more writing. I'm gonna start a sort of timetable when I get to the new house where I set asside certain times for writing. I have also been meaning to write a letter to my friend for AGES but I just havn't found the time to do it yet. Maybe I should do that now instead of writing this? Yeah I guess I will

New look. New update

Well I have just finished changing the format and colours of my blog, I hope you all like it. I am going to try and do a bit more advertising for my blog and hopefully get more readers. It would be brilliant if I could reach this blog out to more people and to get to a wider variety of people.

Recently my life has been really strange and a lot of stuff is changing. Do you know that feeling when you know something is going to happen, going to change but it just feels like a dream, like it is never REALLY going to happen. Its the sort of feeling you get when something has been the same way for as long as you can remember and suddenly it about to change? Yeah, thats how I am feeling right now.

In about two month I am going to move house, the new house is only about twenty minutes away but it still feels strange because I have lived in the house I live in for as long as I can remember. I also feel like that when I think about leaving school, I know that one day it is going to happen but it feels like it won't happen.

We got a new kid at school this week, me and my friend have been talking to them and trying to make friends with them. I'm not really sure it they want to be friends with us but we might as well try. Its begining to annoy me that my other friend doesn't really seem to care about the new kid.

More friend stuff, the other day I got an email from my friend that I haven't spoken to since January which was really good. I was so excited when I saw that I had an email from her,

Basically thats all I have to say for now. Hopefully I will get more people reading my blog soon...

How do you go about becoming friends with someone that is a year above you? That I would like to know. I can't just go up and say hi to them because they are ALWAYS with their friends and I can't to the them infront of their friends. What do I do? I really want to be friend with this person. I really am not brave enough to just go up and talk to them.

PLEASE HELP!!!

Lifes up...and downs

The last few weeks have been a bit strange.... a lot of different things have happened.
I have finally got back in contact with this person I was best friends with when I was younger. She is a couple of years older then me and we don't have much in common but we still talk.
I've been trying to make friends with this girl who is a year above me at school. Its not all that easy. We have only ever spoken on facebook and we don't ever speak at school, I don't even think she knows who I am.... oh well, all friendships have to start somewhere.
I still talk to the English one which is good. Actually she is a lot like the school one because of the international thing. See the one from school comes from America.
Adding to the America-one I only have about one year to befriend her before she moves back to America....

Two questions...

Ok so a friend of mine asked me two questions: Is it possible to be home sick for a place you have never been to? and is it possible to miss someone you have never met? So I guess this is my attempt at answering them, but if anyone reading this has a different answer then I would like to here it, just comment on this post.

Is it possible to be home sick for a place you have never been to?

Well I would say home sick is the wrong term to use. Home sick sort of implys that that is your home. If you have never been there then it can't be your home can it? But I answer to the actual question I would have to say that it you have a special connect to that place in some way then maybe you can miss it even though you have never been there.

I asked another of my friends this and they said: 'Maybe if in a past life something special happened to you there then you could feel home sick for that place' Now to say this was true would be kinda saying that there are such things as past life. I don't think I believe in them, because if they were real what would be the point of this life?

Now on to the second question:

Is it possible to miss someone that you have never met?

Umm I'm not really sure what my answer to this question is. I guess maybe you can, if you feel that you know them really well. Maybe if this person died before you got to meet them you could miss them simply out of gief.

Ok for anyone out there reading this, can you please help me out?

A invisible barrier...

Some times I feel like I am surrounded by an invisible wall. This wall won't let anyone in. To some people it might seem like I don't trust them or something like that. In my past I have trusted some people a little to easily and I have ended up being hurt. When I am talking to people I don't know in real life I don't tell them things about me like my age straight away because I think that they would think I'm to young or something. This is probably hardly ever the case, most people are better tgeb tgar but just to be sure I talk to them for a while first, just to get them to get to know me first. Some of you might think this is lying but it's not, if I am directly asked a question like 'how old are you?' I would answer with the truth. Also sometimes I won't say what I am really thinking or feeling for risk of insulting them or causing them to doubt my friendship. Again, most of the time, this isn't the case but I still think it is. I am going to try to be a more trusting person and to try and let people through that wall but its not that easy so just have patience, over time I will trust you more and more.

To everyone I haven't let through yet I really am sorry, this is just part of who I am.

To everyone I have: Consider yourself lucky and I hope that our friendship lasts a long time