Sunday, May 12, 2013

Taylor Swift and memories

I have this theory, that when you love an artist, that you will never forget how you came to hear their song for the very first time. For me, with Taylor Swift, I was in Target, looking at the electronic section, just wandering through the phones and DVD players and speakers and everything and there was this little TV sitting on the shelf, and it was playing all the latest hits. I remember standing there listening to this one song that I had never heard before (I wasn't a kid to listen to popular music) and I just thought 'I like this song' and I stood there until the little words that said "Love Story- Taylor Swift" came up on that screen.

I went home that night and I search it on youtube, and I fell in love. I'm not really sure what happened next, but I remember not much later, sitting in English with my best friend Aaron, just singing that song together because we both knew all the words. This is about the point where things spiralled out of control. Because I have this thing where I can't just love an artists, if I like them I have to go all out.

So next is just a kaleidoscope of memories. Buying the album. Renting the first album from the library and putting them on my computer. Knowing all the words, and being able to sit in my room singing the songs. It beautiful, that feeling, looking up concerts then deciding not to go, buying more albums, singing along to more songs...

Now we're here, sitting in my room writing this. In the last couple of days I have gone from "I love Taylor Swift's music" to "I love Taylor Swift" It all started again on Friday when I found out she was doing an Australian tour. Now, this isn't overly ground breaking, it has happened twice before but this time I decided I was going to go. Since then its been a cascade of fangirling.

In the last two days I have: watched every cover of her songs Cimorelli have done, watched every song on her vevo, spent hours singing along to her music, looked up all the unreleased songs she has posted, what an entire concert from her red tour in America, watched a couple of interviews, and am currently watching "Taylor Swift- A Journey to Fearless"

And through all of this I have discovered something. I don't just like her music, as I had thought for many years. I genuinely like her as a person. She is one of those people who have this raw emotion, and, most importantly, humour. Like Cimorelli, she has the ability to be able to laugh at herself and have fun. She doesn't have to always be serious, and this shines through so strongly in everything she does. I love this about people, especially her. She is one of those people who I would love to be friends with, not because I'm a fan but because I genuinely do.

Its a strange feeling...

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Quick Post

Just a quick little post. I promise, I'll sit down and write something proper soon, but for now, here is an update.

Why does year 12 have to be so stressful? It feels, at the moment, as if there is a never ending stream of things to do. For example, today: go to Business, go write Business summaries, eat lunch, go to Legal, go to Extension 2 English meeting, write some more, eat again, go to chapel, go to maths, go home, get changed, eat dinner, go to guides, run activity/make bead creatures, go home.....

See? There is no break, it's just a mindless series of things that have to be done. It also leaves very little times for other things in life that maybe aren't as crucial as school work, for example updating this blog.

Well I suppose it's only for a year, or by this stage another 6 months, and then what? We get thrown into living our lives. That's the other thing the don't tell you on the brochure. Sure, they tell you about the exams, and assignments, and homework, and classes, and hours of study, that you are supposed to do, but they forget to mention that while all of that is going on, you are supposed to be making some of the most crucial decisions so far in your life.

Where are you going to go to uni? Are you even going to go to uni? Where will you live? How will you afford it? Do you want to take a gap year? What sort of career do you want to have? How much work will you need to put in?

All these decisions about the next year, all of which need to be considered in great detail. Then they try and tell you, you should be focusing on your school work, as if the decisions you make for school aren't going to affect everything else.

But I guess, what I'm getting at, is that despite the bad marks, late nights, never ending lists, and big decisions, we just have to keep going, keeping finding that path through all the chaos, knowing that eventually, in less than a years time, we will find the clearing at the end and then, life can truly begin again.